"Will I ever get this right?". This is what I asked myself this morning, as I managed to confuse myself for the second week running, about exactly how communion would be administered to me at church. See what going overseas for a bit, then returning home can do to your brain? lol.
Anyway, I ask myself this same question a lot in my walk as a Christian. Often I go through trials and problems and often I must admit that I waver. Even though I don't fully doubt, I feel a weakness in me, a weakness that probably would not be there if I trusted in the Lord completely like I should. Then, in the end, once things have passed, of course everything works out fine, sometimes I even see why the Lord let things happen as they did, and I aptly exclaim, "Wow! That's some divine planning! I hadn't a clue that other situation was important!". But then the question hits me, "Will I ever get this right?".. Will I ever do what is right and fully put aside what I know to be wrong? Will I ever trust in God completely even when things are as clear as mud? Will I ever be the Christian that God knows I can be?
To be honest, these questions usually make me cringe! Sometimes however, on a lonely, quiet day, they catapult me into deep thought, which usually leads to critical self-evaluation. After all, to be a Christian means to grow, to learn more, to move pass what we were, to aim higher, and ultimately, as Paul alludes to in 1 Corinthians 11:1, to imitate Christ.
In summary, the life of a Christian isn't easy, or is it to be taken lightly - this we all know. It is hard work, sometimes we will falter, but the important things is to immediately put things right. Self-evaluation is also necessary, and personally, I think it's a wise process to do often. In times where the question "Will I ever get this right?" arises, let's hold strong and reply, "With the strength of Christ we will!" After all, Philippians 4:13 in my Bible states, "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me".. and I think we have the same Bible. :-)
Have a blessed week my friends.